Hello Journal,

I know it has been several months, I told you I was bad at keeping a Journal. at least i can tell you that things are better even from yesterday as yesterday I did have an off day, an off day of just feeling wrong and that I didn't belong. I can also tell you that my fears from last semester were just that fears. I did what i thought was impossible and I passed both of my classes and made it out of academic warning and you know all it took? hard work and.  perseverance. I have came to the conclusion that college is just one big growing pain after another. once you have settled in a certain groove of things. things yet again chance. and those growing pains are just that. growing pains. this does not mean I'm not going to graduate it means there is going to be highs and lows. easy parts and really hard parts and the hard parts is what is going to make me a great artist because if i get though the hard parts just fine no telling what the future will hold for me as an artist i can tell you that i can not wait for the future. everyday that i think about it my philosophy on design is ever changing but are we allowed to change that? i don't know but my idea on what design should mean and be is changing for sure. well i know this is a short entry and it will be a while before i write again but that is all i have to say today so i will write to you again soon.....ish


happy again
amber